Title: This is Bullshit (35/?)
Authors: howido_fics & youbrat
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Summary: It's TIME to party!.
Disclaimer: *sigh*
Author’s Note: This is a co-write. howido_fics is Brendon, youbrat is Ryan. Ryan's pov is in blue and Bren's is normal black.




Last night went pretty well, and luckily we all got a good amount of sleep. I wasn't sure what time Ry and I actually fell asleep, let alone the two noisy boys across the fire, but when we woke, the fire was still going, so luckily we didn't freeze during the night. Once we had everything packed and loaded, we stopped for breakfast, having enough time before I had to meet my family for service, since they were all in town.

Now, I just spent the past nine hours with my family, it being 7pm, and slowly but surely, they were all leaving the party. They actually took the fact that I was gay fairly well, and even my grandfather accepted me. But, I was pretty sure my mother had given everyone a fair warning.

They also greeted and chatted with Ryan and Alex like they were part of our family, which I wasn't surprised since they both brought their manners with them. Sometimes I felt like I had a huge Greek family they way they talked and acted and interacted, all around food. I honestly loved my family and was glad they were so understanding, cause I'm not sure what I would have done if they hadn't been.

Maybe run away? I don't know.

Either way, the last few members were heading out to the annual fireworks off the strip and then would be going home afterwards, so I decided that since we were all from Vegas, and had seen it many times, that me and my friends should just stay there, hang out, eat some leftovers and maybe swim and drink or all of the above. And that was where we were right then.

And I was in search of my lovely boyfriend...

Alex and I had spent the evening getting to know Brendon's family while we were also enjoying talking to the guys of the band and a few others of his friends that we both knew. It was a little strange being back in the mix of it all, and I did have to admit that I avoided his mother as much as I possibly could. I knew I couldn't avoid her at all costs, but I could certainly try, and that was definitely what I did.

By the end of the party, Alex and I had found a comfortable spot out near the pool and were curled up on one of the empty lounge chairs just relaxing and talking. He wouldn't tell me what had gone on with him in Spencer after we'd gone to bed, or if anything had happened between them at all. I knew, if something had, he would tell me eventually, but obviously he wasn't ready for me to know right then and there at the party.

Alex was playing with my hair, and I was leaning against him with my eyes closed as I listened to the people milling around and talking, mixing together with the sound of the music that was playing out near the pool. We'd lost Spencer about an hour before, as well as all the other guys that we knew, or kinda knew. So we just decided to stay in one spot outside and wait till the other guys came and found us.

I sighed softly and nestled a little closer to Alex since it was a little cooler than it had been earlier, and he was keeping me warm. I tilted my head up a little to look around the pool area, wondering where all the guys got to and what we were going to do for the rest of the night. I kinda wanted to do something, even though I wasn't sure what that something was right that moment. I just wanted to do something.

Walking up to Spencer, I asked him if he had seen Ryan and he mentioned seeing them out by the pool and that the rest of the guys were all changing in their trunks to go swimming since the adults were gone. I nodded to him as I grabbed a couple bottles of water and headed out towards the pool.

I hadn't even made it out there when I heard yelling and turned to see a trail of six guys in trunks running full speed at the pool and jumping in with huge splashes. Shaking my head as they surfaced, I watched them splash around and shove each other as I made my way over to Ryan and Alex, hoping they didn't get wet from the dorks, a.k.a, my friends.

Offering them both a bottle of water, I sat on the edge of the pool and looked up at them smiling, "So, most of my family and parent's friends are gone, and now the fun party can begin," I winked at Ryan as David came up and tugged at my leg. Luckily I was near the ladder at the deep end, so I clung to it while kicking him, "Seriously, am I wearing trunks? I am trying to have a conversation here!" I laughed, "Give me like five minutes and I'll join you all."

"OK!" he screamed as he dipped under and did a flip against the wall.

Turning back to Ryan, I sighed, "You guys up for a dip?" I asked just as Spencer came out in his trunks. He was looking good. He had slimmed down a lot this summer. Not that he was overweight by any means, but he practiced a lot more on the drums, and in turn, was loosing weight. I whistled at him, "OH! SEXY!" I shouted. And of course, he flipped me off.

I chuckled softly and rested my head down onto Alex's chest and watched the guys in the pool before checking the time. "Um, sure, I think I could go for a swim." I turned and looked up at Alex. "You wanna go for a swim too?"

Alex shrugged a little and nodded before looking over at Spencer and looking back to Brendon. "Yeah, sure. I think my swimsuit is somewhere inside..." He trailed off and looked down at me before sliding his hand down to my neck and out of my hair. "So...um, I guess we can go get changed then?"

I nodded a little and looked over at Brendon with a smile as I got up and got out of the chair, reaching down and helping Alex get up off of the chair. "Are you going to come up and get changed with us? Or are you already wearing yours so that you can just jump in?"

Alex slid his arm around my shoulders and grinned at Brendon. "I'm gonna go get changed and let the two of you figure out what you're doing." He pecked my temple before turning and walking into the house. I watched him walk away and into the house for a few moments before I turned back and looked at Brendon, offering him my hand to help him get up.

"So...I think I have a pair up in your room...unless you got rid of them?"

I smirked as I got up, running my hands down Ryan's arms, "Yea, I think I might have a pair or something of yours in my room, maybe we should go check that out..." I leaned in and kissed him, then turned to Spencer. Grabbing a hold of Ryan's hand, I walked over to Spence and winked, "So, Ry and I are gonna go change and go swimming with you all..." I gave him a huge grin as I shoved him in the water.

Laughing, I waited until he surfaced and growled at me, pushing his hair out of his face, "Think you can hold down the fort while we're gone?" I asked. He just scowled at me as he nodded. Well, that was good enough for me!

Turning around, I felt a HUGE splash of water bit the back of me legs. Nice. I looked down and saw my somewhat wet shorts and legs, "Paybacks a bitch, yes?" I heard Spencer laugh.

"Oh," I barely turned my head to speak to him, "The battle has not even begun..." I winked at Ryan as I nodded towards the door. Once we were inside, I pulled Ryan into a kiss, "So, I think we should definitely rid ourselves completely of these clothes before we even think about trunks? What do you say? Race you to my room?" I winked again as I slapped his ass, giving myself a head start.

I chuckled softly and shook my head as I watched Brendon take off, following behind him without being too utterly close to him. I made my way the stairs behind him, grinning a little to myself as I approached his room, not really sure where Alex was, but I was definitely up for having a little bit of time alone with Brendon since we hadn't had any time alone together after we left the desert that morning.

I walked into his room and closed the door behind me as I smiled over at him. "So, we're getting changed and when they all ask why it took us...well, however long its going to take us, to get changed, what're you going to tell them Bren?"

I chuckled softly and slipped my shoes off as I moved over and slid up and onto his bed, leaning back onto my elbows. I regarded him with a tilt to my head and a smile on my lips. His bed was comfy, and I was thinking that I could seriously sleep there for the night, but I didn't want to freak out his parents that his son's boyfriend was in bed with him in his bedroom.

Quirking my eyebrow at him a little before reaching my hand out for him and giving him the quirk of the finger, telling him to 'come here' as I looked at him. I licked my lips a little and sat up more, pulling him in between my legs once he took my hand.

I smiled at him as I slid between his legs, "We," I leaned down and kissed him, "Will just," I kissed him again, "Tell them," again, a kiss, "That we were looking for trunks," I wiggled my eyes, "Or we could tell them the truth, that I was up here fucking you senseless," I shrugged, "The truth is up to you!"

Moving more up his body so I was flush on top of him, I ground my hips down as I pulled his mouth to mine. Kissing him and exploring his mouth, really, for the first time in a week, I worked my tongue in and moved with his slightly. Pulling back with a gasp, I pecked his lips again as my fingers made their way down to the bottom of his shirt. Once I was able to touch his skin, I moaned slightly as I began to bring the fabric up with me as I moved my fingers higher and higher.

Sitting up a little, I removed his shirt and kissed and licked and nibbled on the skin that was in front of me. As much as I missed Ryan, talking to him and laughing with him, I would definitely have to say that I missed touching him and seeing him the most. Last night just wasn't good enough, "God Ry, I wanted to do this since...all day. Seeing you talking to my family and smiling and joking and everything with them. It took everything in me not to just grab you and kiss you right there..." I leaned against and kissed him as my fingers tweaked his nipples, "You are so beautiful Ryan. And I missed you so much."

Moaning softly against Brendon's mouth, I wound my arms around his neck and pulled him harder down against me, kissing him as deeply and passionately as I possibly could. I sucked softly on his lower lip, tugging on it a little before pulling back and looking up at him. "I missed you too Brendon. I missed you very, very much."

My eyebrows furrowed just a little as I looked up at him, moving my hand up to caress his cheek softly, a small smile playing on my lips as I looked at him. "I wish we weren't rushed or that we didn't have to be conscious of everyone else who is downstairs and outside. I'd rather have free time with you, unlimited."

I leaned up and kissed him again softly before pulling back a little and murmuring quietly. "I wish we had as much time as we wanted with no need to worry about anyone or anything. I like having no restraint and no need to rush. I'd rather it be us...just you and me with nothing to bother us...but...since we can't really have that. I'll take what I can get with you right now."

I smiled up at him and leaned up to kiss him again, letting my hands slip down over his chest and to his pants. My fingers worked at undoing the fastening of his shorts before sliding my hands down and inside them. "Mmm...I want you Bren."

My eyes rolled to the back of my head as I groaned at the contact of his hand, "Me too Ry, fuck, me too..." I did want all the time in the world with him right now. Hell, I even talked and practiced myself into possibly bottoming for him, but of course, Wednesday changed the entire course of action for us. But, I won't even think about that right now.

"Yea," I moved into his hand, "But, but, let's just take advantage of the short time we have right now, ok?" I smiled at him as I moved one hand inside my shirt and pulled it over my head. Another moan escaped my lips as soon as my skin touched his. Fuck he felt amazing.

"And, fuck Ry, I want you too, I want to be in you. I want to feel you around me. I want to have your body squeezing and flexing and contracting around me. And I want your mouth on mine...And your hands on my body. And your moans in my ears...and God, your come between us."

I knew I was getting carried away, and I hoped I wasn't embarrassing myself, but it seemed like forever ago since he was beneath me and right now, all I wanted to do was take advantage of that.

I moaned in response, my hands moving to grip onto him and pull him closer against me. I turned my head and fastened my lips onto his, kissing him deeply and hard, my hand slipping up into his hair to hold his lips against mine. His words sent shivers through my body and sparked something inside me that desperately needed and wanted him to fulfill everything he'd just said.

I needed it.

After the previous few days, after the fight, the uncertainty, after everything, I needed to have him against me and in me, I needed to feel him and forget everything else but just me and him. I arched up and into his body, pulling his lips more into mine and pressing more of my skin in and against his. I groaned in response to him, whimpering quietly and tugging him to try and pull him down on top of me. I was impatient for him.

My lips dropped from his and I panted softly, laying myself back on the bed and looking up at him. "Then for God's sake, let's get with it." I smiled up at him and slid my fingers down over his lips. "I want you Bren. Right fuckin' now."

I laughed slightly at his impatience. Here I was worried that I sounded like an idiot, and he was eating every word I fed. Smiling down at him, I placed a kiss on his lips as I reached between us and started to undo his pants. Once I got the button and zipped down, I pulled away, sitting up and moving down his body, bringing his pants with me.

Hopping off the bed, I threw his clothes on my chair, followed by mine as I walked over to my dresser and rummaged for the lube and a condom. Once I had the contents in my hand, I made my way over to Ryan. Before I got on my bed, I placed the condom on me and rubbed some lube over myself too.

Once I was satisfied, I set the lube down, looking at him as I held my hand upright so that I still had some lingering on my fingers for him. I made my way back on the bed and between his legs. Giving him a short kiss, I moved my fingers between his legs and slipped one inside of his hole. I knew it had been a week, and I still wasn't sure on the etiquette of how much you need to be stretched between each time. All I knew for sure is that him beneath me and my fingers inside of him made me want to say fuck the fingers and just go at it.

"Ry," I leaned to kiss him again, "Please, tell me when you're ready..."

I nodded against his lips, kissing him again, this time a little more deeply. My hands wound up and threaded into his hair, pulling him and holding him hard and tight against me. He felt amazing, and we had barely even started doing anything. My body started moving into his hand, arching and pushing into his touch.

Nodding again, I let my head drop back against the bed. Licking my lips, I looked up at him and, panting softly, whispered his name as my fingers threaded more intensely into his hair. I was desperate for him, I wanted him to just forget it and just take me.

My breathing was already a little heavy with desire. I nodded again, not even really realizing I was nodding so much. I slid my free hand down and over his chest, just caressing and touching his skin a little as my hand moved. "Bren...mmm...Bren..."

I bit my lip and arched up against him again. He felt amazing. He felt utterly amazing and desperately wanting more. "Bren...stop teasing me...please..."

I nodded to him, smirking a little as I mimicked his movements he kept doing. Once I had three fingers in him, and he gave me the go ahead, I pulled out my fingers and lined up. Before I pushed into him, I let my body relax and chills ran up and down my spine. I knew that it would all go too quickly, so I tried to contain myself before I went too far.

Being inside of him was something I could never explain. It was the greatest mixture of pain and pleasure that equaled something that was unbelievably unforgettable.

Hmm, my father was right, I was the King of Adverbs...

Leaning down to kiss him, I pushed inside of him as my teeth nibbled on his bottom lip. Kneading the flesh between my lips and mouth, I was able to hide my moan, leaving his mouth completely open with no barrier or restraint on his voice. And it was that noise that I was dying to hear. I loved how vocal he was, if at all possible, it turned me on even more.

Knowing we had very little time, I pulled out and thrust back into him, still attached to his lip.

The push and pull, the friction inside me, the feeling of him against me, around me, inside me, all of it, it forced a loud moan out of my lips. My head dropped back and I shifted my hips against his, pressing back in against him, pushing myself more to him to try and push him deeper inside of me.

My legs wound themselves around his back, using my flexibility to pull him in and hold him against my body. Even though it had only been a week since he and I had last been together, I had ached for him so badly and I hadn't even really realized it. I pulled at him, trying to get him in closer to me, my body begging for more, but the words not escaping from my lips.

Pressing my head back into the pillow, my jaw dropped some and I moaned again as I started to move against his movements, pushing into his thrusts, pulling him tighter into me with my legs. I gasped his name over and over again before leaning up and smashing my lips to his again, kissing him desperately and frantically.

I didn't want to take forever and cause everyone to wonder what had happened to us, but at the same time I wanted my time alone with him. I just didn't want to cause a million questions. But I didn't want to rush being with Brendon either. Although, with how my body was moving, it wasn't rushing it if I was just going with how amazing it felt and how much I wanted more.

Every time. It never got old. The way he moved under me and writhed and slid and arched. Hell, he even took control while I was on top. How, I did not know, but I wasn't about to not let it happen.

Connecting our lips again, I knew I was getting close. Too close, too soon, I was sure of it, but I hadn't even touched myself since Wednesday because I was so disgusted with myself for fucking things up, so, I was about over due for a good orgasm.

But, the difference between the first time I came to quickly and now, was that I knew what to do to make Ryan right up to speed with me, and one of those things was to reach between us and stroke him. Which, of course was obvious and easy, the other, was his collarbone, but here, I knew I had to be quick and not pay too much attention, cause we were going to be topless at a pool very soon.

Doing those said things, I managed to attach my lips to his neck and make my way down and across to his shoulder while moving my hand up and down his shaft, and thumbing the head. Oh, and I almost forgot! I balanced my knees more, and thrust in at a completely different angle, moaning against his now wet skin.

Gasping, I pushed more against him, trying to slide my legs further up along his sides, trying to pull him closer, trying to hold him inside me as he was. My hands slid deep into Brendon's hair and I held his lips against me as I whimpered for breath and for him too. Biting into my bottom lip, my head pressed back further into the pillow.

My eyes squeezed closed as my body moved against his hand and his body, as I held him close and tight against me, as my body screamed for him and for release all at the same time. My lower lip tugged from my teeth and I licked them again before letting Brendon's name slip off of them.

I gave his hair a tug, pulling his lips back up and to mine as I pressed a feverish kiss to his lips, making the most I could of the pouty and swollen lips. I loved how they felt on mine. I loved how everything of him felt on and against me. He drove me crazy and he drove my body wild. I loved the way he made me feel. It was intoxicating, but in a better way than alcohol.

"Oh...god...Bren!"

My lower body started working on a pace of its own as I slammed into him repeatedly. It wasn't necessarily slamming, but my upper body would have thought so, and I knew I wasn't hurting him, cause his legs wrapped around me were guiding me to do the same.

Breaking for air, I gasped as I looked in his eyes, "Fuck Ry, so beautiful, so perfect...so fucking close!" I mumbled as I attacked his lips again. Our mouths were open as we breathed through our noses and our tongues played and rolled with one another. His mouth was so intense. I loved every square inch of it.

Pulling back again a shudder went through my body as I smiled at him below me. I knew I was close. I could feel it. My toes felt like they were asleep as my heart was pounding out of my chest. There was sweat rolling down my forehead, dropping onto Ryan as I continued to move in and out of him, changing angles while jerking him off. I just kept my upper body there, a safe distance from him as I stared into his gorgeous eyes.

I struggled to keep my eyes open and on his face. I wanted to watch him, I wanted to keep my eyes on his and on him. I wanted to keep eye contact, to see how he looked and to see the look in his eyes, but I just couldn't help it, my eyes slid closed and I couldn't stop them. My head fell back again onto the pillow, pressing harder into it as I pressed up against him, gasping softly.

"Bren...Bren..." My jaw dropped and my arms tugged at his, I was just scrambling to hold onto him and move with and against him, but I couldn't really organize myself to actually figure out what I was doing.

One hand moved up to my hair, gripping and tugging at it. I licked my lips, my heart racing, my body feeling like it was on fire, every nerve standing on end and screaming Brendon's name. I tossed my head to the side slightly, tossing the fringe from in front of my eyes the best I could, even though they were plastered to my forehead. I whimpered again softly, forcing my eyes to open to look up at him, though only looking at him through my lashes because I couldn't even get them all the way open.

"Uhhh....Ren...."

It felt so amazing that my arms were visibly shaking as I looked down at him. I needed something to grab a hold of, well, besides Ryan's erection. Letting go of him, I rested on my elbows, all the while not slowing my pace. I couldn't believe I had lasted this long, I was sure I would let go any second.

Running my hands underneath his arms, I grabbed a hold of his shoulders practically forcing him down and deeper onto me as I thrust harder into him. This being the most work I have ever put into having sex with him, I was almost out of breath, but had enough in me to groan and grunt and whisper, "Ry, Babe, I can't, you, you have to touch yourself..."

Trying to calm my breathing, I continued to move into him. My grunts and heartbeat, his moans, and our skin physically slapping and melting together were the only sounds I heard. I was sure you could hear the party outside, or the fireworks in the distance or even the cars driving down the street, but everything was drowned out completely.

And honestly, this was the only thing I wanted or needed to hear.

I felt Brendon slip deeper inside me when he gripped onto me and thrust. He hit so deep, so deep and hard, and so utterly perfect.

"Oh, fuck Ren!" My body seized slightly, tightening around him, pulling him in deeper inside me, holding him and clinging onto him as my body betrayed me. I had wanted to last longer, last as long as humanly possible and just have him with me and stay with me and fuck, stay in me. But my body gave out and I found myself coming hard between us without even touching myself.

I pulled at my own hair, my body arched harshly up against his, my legs pulling at him as the orgasm wracked my entire body. Panting, I fell back, looking up at him as the waves from the orgasm continued to roll over me, shivers running up and down my spine. I felt my body contract around him and continue to slowly contract around him. Lazily, I slid my arms up and around his neck, trying to pull his lips back down to mine.

I let my eyes float a little as I looked down and him and smirked. I could feel my entire throat sinking in to gasp for air, but all I wanted to do at this very moment was kiss him. I knew I was close. All too close that I couldn't stand it. Lifting up a little before I placed my lips on his, I looked between us, down at the come between our bodies, and that was really all it took.

My stomach and legs started to shudder first as I brought my face to look at him again, "Fa, fauck...Ry..." I let out as I pressed my lips to his. I wasn't even sure if it was my lips on his lips or what, but I knew I felt something wet. Pulling back, with everything I had in me, I moaned, "Open," even though they already were and I stared into him as my mouth remained slack.

I came hard inside of him, my lower body continuing to move and thrust without any thought from me. Riding out my orgasm, I stared into his eyes between my own crossing and trying to roll back in my head. I was thankful before that I rested on my elbows, because I knew if I hadn't then, then I would have collapsed by now.

Shuddering a deep breath, I pressed my lips to his. Allowing every piece of energy I had left into the kiss, I kept my lips on his and moving and nibbling the skin and flesh beneath me. That was perfectly amazing. Everything I wanted and needed and could have asked for and more.

I groaned as I felt Brendon come, wrapping my arms and my legs more around him with what little energy I had left in my body. My fingers slipped into the sweaty hair at the base of his neck. I tried to pull him down to lay against me, but with him on his elbows it was rather hard to get him to move down at all. Instead, I just settled for keeping my arms around him and just laying beneath him.

Letting my eyes slide closed, I slid my hand more up into his hair, just letting my fingertips slide over his scalp. "Mmmm...Bren..." I licked my lips and turned my head to the side, just reveling in the feeling of being with Brendon and having him inside me, above me and just generally all around me.

"Can...Can we just stay right here...just...ignore everyone else and just stay right here. Everyone else can leave when they're ready. I just...mmm...I just wanna not move and not move away from you or from being like this for as long as possible..." I moved one of my hands sliding it down to run over his chest.

I shivered to his touch, "Mmm," I let out a low groan, "That would be perfectly amazing," I smiled as my elbows slipped down and I rest my head on his shoulder. Nuzzling my nose into him, I slipped my tongue out to taste his skin. Just loving the feeling of our skin against skin and his taste on my lips.

"I think," I blew against the skin I just wetted, "That we should just stay here. And, I doubt they would even notice if we never came back," I of course laughed at this, knowing it wasn't true. Hell, Alex was probably already climbing the walls having to hang out with my friends alone for that amount of time. Unless he was making out with Spencer...Oh, which reminds me.

Leaning up again on my elbows, I smirked, "No, we need to go down there and keep an eye on Spencer and Alex," I winked, "Cause," I ran my fingers along Ryan's side, "Last night, when you went to sleep, I heard some things from the other bed, and it wasn't snoring...if you get what I'm saying..."

I raised my eyebrows and opened my eyes, looking up at him. "You heard something?" I tilted my head slightly to look at him a little better. I slid my hand slowly along his back, just to feel his slick skin beneath my fingertips. "Alex didn't talk to me about anything that happened last night..."

I pouted a little because that meant having to get up. That also meant not having Brendon inside me anymore. It meant putting clothes back on and getting out of bed, out of his room, and out in front of other people. It wasn't really what I wanted to do, but I was sure if we didn't go out there Alex would come looking for us eventually.

Nestling closer to Brendon I murmured quietly. "Do we have to get up Bren? I mean really...Do we need to go and check on Spence and Alex? Can't we just let them fuck and get it over with? Spence could use some good sex and Lex is hornier than a dog in heat...they could really use to just fuck and get it over with." I smiled and leaned in to kiss Brendon, reaching down to pull a blanket up and over us a little because the air on my sweaty skin was causing me to shiver.

I yawned and pulled the blanket up around us more as I kissed him, "MMMkay..." I let out as I smiled at him then took his bottom lip into my mouth. Moving my legs to settle better between his, I lightly began to sway my hips into his. Not trying to turn us on or have another go or anything, but just out of instinct and pure enjoyment. He felt so good pressed into me. And I loved the feeling of still being inside of him.

That was when it hit me. I just had sex on my bed in my room.

Shaking the thought out of my mind, I laughed it off inwardly and continued to kiss my boyfriend and touch whatever skin I came across, "I am so glad you are here, right now, underneath me. Having you here is the most amazing thing ever. And what we just did, it was so perfect and fulfilling and, Ry, you are the greatest and I," I gulped, "I think I am fal..."

There was a banging on the door and I screamed, rolling over and pulling out in the process, but somehow I still managed to keep us both covered, "What?" I yelled.

I heard my friend Eric speak from across the door, "Dude, it's starting to get a little dark out and we can't figure out to turn the pool lights on..."

I sighed, "I'm coming, I'm coming!"

I whimpered softly when Brendon pulled out, I was really enjoying the feeling of having him still inside me, lightly rocking against me and making out with him. It was perfect. I loved lazy make-out sessions, especially those lazy make-out sessions that followed a wonderful sexual experience.

Pouting a little, I moved over to snuggle in closer to him and sighed. "Why can't we just tell them where the lights are so we don't have to get up at all?" I pouted a little more before giving in and leaning over to kiss him, sliding my body pretty much on top of his while I kissed him soft and slow. I pulled back just slightly to murmur. "They can wait a few more minutes."

With that, I returned to kissing him softly, slowly and deeply. I tried to draw it out as long as I possibly could before finally pulling away and sighing quietly. "Mmm...I guess we have to go and face everyone, huh?" I pouted a little before pulling back more and sitting up, stretching languidly and what would probably be considered cat-like. "Mmmmmmm...I feel...satiated." I grinned softly at him.

"Oh fuck no," I groaned as I climbed over to him and practically sat on his lap. Grabbing his hair rather harshly, I brought his lips to mine, connecting so quickly our teeth clanked in the process, making a sound to say I was sorry, I didn't cease the kissing as I ran my other hand up and down his chest before slipping it into the come on his stomach.

Pulling back I grinned, "oh, but first, we have to get you cleaned up," I winked, "And don't worry, I'll be quick!" I pecked his lips before dipping down and attacking his stomach. And by attacking, I meant attacking! I bit and nibbled and sucked and licked until every last drop of come was removed. It was the entire mixture that made it. The come, the sweat, the fabric softener from his shirt. And the HUGE mix of Ryan.

Feeling satisfied with my job, I sat back up and smiled at him, "See, there," I licked my lips, then my finger, "All better!" I smiled as I pressed a quick kiss to his lips and hopped off of him to find my trunks, and hopefully a pair for him.

I groaned softly when he climbed off the bed. I pouted a little and collapsed back against the bed, just stretching my body out on the bed as I watched him, a small smile creeping across my lips as I watched him. "Bren..." I bit my lip a little as I thought about what I was going to say, my eyes slipping over his body as I watched him.

"Come back here? Please?" I gave him puppy dog eyes as I licked my lips softly.

I tilted my head to the other side and grinned softly. "Are...are we one hundred percent okay? I want us to be." I sat up and reached for him, pulling him over to me, slipping my hands around his hips as I did, looking up at him and looking into his eyes.

"Fights happen in relationships..." I moved one of my hands across Brendon's stomach before slowly up his chest. "I know it's going to happen again. But...I don't want it to blow up like it did this time. I don't want to fight anymore. And I don't want to have problems with you..." I furrowed my eyebrows slightly. "I love you Bren...I'm sorry for what happened...I just...I want to be sure we're one hundred percent okay before we go back out there and face everyone. Before we take another hour out of our time here together before me and Lex leave. Things were so awkward yesterday and last night for the most part. I don't want to be there again."

I gulped as I looked down at him. This I had not expected one bit. It actually blew me off base for a minute. And I hadn't even really thought about it, because I had been so busy and wrapped up in the party and family and friends. I moved out of his hands to sit down next to him. It felt weird to do this naked, but I knew it had to be done and said and like he mentioned, before we went out there with them.

Grabbing his hand, I placed it on my lap, "I am ok Ryan, and I think we are ok. Our relationship that is. I think it will be ok. And I know that we will fight again, but I am like you, I don't want the next time for it to blow out of proportion. I guess that is the thing with long distances, we can't be right there to talk it through, and I hate having to do it over the phone, I am not comfortable with that one bit." I smiled to him, squeezing his hand, "And I do want to apologize to you again. And again. I promise I will work harder next time. And I will try not to hold anything back."

"What about you? What do you feel?"

I shrugged slightly before moving toward him, moving our hands from his lap and slipping myself into it, straddling him and looking down into his eyes. "I love you. That is what I feel. I'm back here with you, in your arms, skin to skin. That is what I feel." I took his hand and placed it over my heart, looking into his eyes.

Licking my lips softly, I threaded my fingers with his over my heart. I leaned in and pressed a kiss to his lips before pulling back and whispering. "I feel you. I feel us. I feel this with us. I want this and I don't want this to be ruined by what happened. You're more important to me than that, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to get upset if we fight. It also doesn't mean I'm never going to do anything that'll hurt you, just like I know it doesn't mean you won't ever either. But you and me...I think we can get through this. If we can trust each other. If we can be honest with each other. Bren...we can get through all of this. Together."

I looked down into his eyes again before leaning in and kissing him again softly before pulling back. "Okay?"

I looked up at him and traced my thumb across his cheek then his lip as I nodded. A tear slipped from my eye that I didn't even know was there. I gulped at his words, but managed to smile as more tears fell down my face. With our hands still between us on his heart, I burst into tears, using my other hand to pull him into me.

Clinging to him with all of my might, I sobbed, "I was so scared Ryan, so scared that I would never see you again, or talk to you again, I was so scared," I managed to get out in between sobs. I continued to cry and shed tears on his shoulder and chest I tried to stop shaking. Once I gained some composure, I pulled back, "Ryan, I do trust you. I trust you Ryan and I am so glad you are here right now, and I am so happy you are here and I, I don't know what I would do without you right now..."

I managed to stop crying, but I still hadn't let go of him. I wanted to say those three words, but I couldn't. I would open my mouth and nothing came out. I didn't understand why it was so hard, but for me it was. Again with the whole time limit thing again or something, but yet, I also told myself that I wouldn't have sex with someone until I loved them too, so I was so confused.

Reaching up, I wiped away the tears on his cheeks before leaning in and kissing him softly. "Shhh, its okay Bren. Its okay." I caressed his cheek softly and looked into his eyes before placing another kiss to his lips.

"Can we leave this behind now? Stop looking in the past and going forward in the future? Please Bren? I want to leave all of this behind and it just be good going forward." Smiling softly, I rested my forehead against his and sighed softly when I heard Alex calling my name. I pouted a little. "I guess its time to go back downstairs, huh?"

I kissed him again before slipping off his lap and going to the door, calling down to Alex that I'd be down in a moment. I turned back to Brendon and leaned against the door. "So...did you find a pair of swimming trunks for me? Or am I going to have to go downstairs dressed as I am right now to go for a swim."

A smirk spread over my lips. "It would be much like that night we were in my pool...and the guys walked in." I winked at him before slowly walking toward him again.

I wiped my face, sniffed and cleared my throat, then smiled at him, "Yea, it would," I sniffed again, sighing as my throat was a little sore, "And, I think I have an extra pair of trunks, cause your birthday suit is a present for only a select few, and my friends are not one of them," I laughed as I stood up, walking over to my dresser.

Opening the drawer, I pulled out two pair of shorts and tossed them on the bed before walking over and grabbing the bottle of lube, placing it back in my drawer and picking up the condom wrapper, along with searching for and retrieving the condom itself. Turing back around, I pulled on the pair of trunks that Ryan wasn't wearing and snapped them at my waist, then tugged them down slightly before knotting them for good measure.

"Ok," I clapped, "Let's get this show on the road," I smiled as I reached my arm around his waist, kissing his cheek as I pulled him out the door and down the stairs, "Ok, do we look or smell like he just had sex?" I made a face, hoping he would say no.

I chuckled softly as we walked downstairs. "Would it matter? I'm sure they all know exactly what we've been doing up here since we disappeared. So would it really matter if we looked and smelled like what they know?"

I reached up and fixed his hair a little, laughing softly when it didn't fix but only went right back to what it had been before I touched it. I was sure that mine looked rather messy as well. I shrugged a little and grinned. "Oh well, they can deal with it, right?"

We stepped off the stairs and I stopped dead as I saw Alex standing there talking to someone who had their back to me, but there was absolutely no mistaking who it was that he was talking to. The body, the hair, the clothing and the voice all betrayed the person. I grinned to myself before frowning a little and looking over at Brendon. I'd forgot to tell him about the little surprise.

Alex looked up. "Well there you are. Did you two have to go off fucking in the middle of the party?!"

I laughed and shrugged. "Hey, it’s been a week, what did you expect?"

Grinning, Pete turned around and gave me a knowing look before he took a step towards me and Brendon. "Sorry to crash the party, but I had to bring Ry something." He spoke to Brendon and smiled at him. "Congrats on your graduation."

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