Title: This is Bullshit (31/?)
Authors: howido_fics & youbrat
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Before Bren leaves.
Disclaimer: *sigh*
Author’s Note: This is a co-write. howido_fics is Brendon, youbrat is Ryan. Ryan's pov is in blue and Bren's is normal black.



Dinner went well, as did the ride. Lex got a little car sick from his first time being in a car the puppy not the boy, mind you, but luckily it was on an owner and not on Matt's seat, cause I think he would have had a canipshit over that. Once we got back to the apartment, we all kind of went our separate ways. Jason and Paul to their apartment with their new friend, and the rest of us in Ryan and Alex's.

As soon as we got in the room, Matt went to clean up his mess, double checking Alex's room to see if he had left anything in there from the previous night as Spencer sighed, picking up his clothes and rolling them into a ball. He always did that when he was bored or tired or nervous. I knew this, cause, well, he always did.

I smiled to him, reaching out to grip his shoulder, "Hey, I'll see you tomorrow at practice, and they," I pointed to Ryan and Alex over my shoulder, "Will be home next week, so no 'goodbyes' here, more like a 'See you later' ok?" I asked, giving him a slight smile. He was always bad at goodbyes, especially since his father went on a lot of business trips, so he was used to them, but that didn't make anything better.

"I know, I know," he sighed, plopping down on the couch, and I wouldn't put it past him for him to sit there until Matt yelled at him, telling him he would carry him out to the car if he had too. And I really wouldn't put it past Matt to do it either.

Walking into the apartment, Alex walked in behind me and closed the door. He pulled me back against him and wrapped his arms around me from behind, whispering into my ear. "Are you going to be okay if I say goodbye to Spence and give him a hug?"

I looked back at him and sighed softly, leaning more against him and shaking my head a little. "You can, Lex. As long as you don't replace me with him, you can say goodbye to him. I'm not going to be mad at you if you do. I just..." I chewed my lip a little before resting my head back against his shoulder and closing my eyes. "Just remember you owe me."

Alex nodding and kissed my neck gently before letting me go. "Don't worry. I'll pay you back, I promise."

I nodded back before stepping away and going more into the apartment. "So....um...you guys heading out?"

Matt stood in the doorway of Alex's room, patting his pockets as to check that he had his essentials then looked at Ryan, "Yep, we need to get back before it gets dark, so we are heading out, like, right now," he smiled over to Spencer, "You ready?"

Spencer shook his head no. Yep, just like I predicted.

Kneeling down in front of him, I gave Matt a look, before turning to Spencer, "Spence, come on. You have to go home, I'm sure your mom is worried sick about you, plus, you need to show off your new sticks!"

His face lit up, "Oh yea, my sticks!" he jumped off the couch. See, bringing up music worked ever time.

"That'a boy," I patted him on the back, looking over to Matt and smiling triumphantly. Matt mentioned that he was gonna go clean out his car quickly, so that Spencer could have a nice, peaceful goodbye. it was funny, almost like he was going away forever. Smiling at Matt, I gave him a quick hug, thanking him for coming and wishing him a safe trip. He said goodbye to the Ryan and Alex before walking out the front door, giving Spence five minutes.

I just looked at Spencer and sighed.

I looked between Brendon and Spencer. "So...I guess I'll see you next weekend, okay?" I smiled as I made my way closer to Spencer to give him a hug or something goodbye. "Take care of that t-shirt of yours, and take care of your new clothes and sticks. And we'll see you when we get home sometime. We're coming in Saturday afternoon, so I expect you come and see us before Brendon's party."

I stepped forward and gave him a hug before smiling and stepping away, letting Alex come in to say goodbye as well. I bit my lip a little and looked over at Brendon before murmuring. "Do you want a drink or anything?" I started for the kitchen because I was thirsty.

Alex shifted and smiled as he stepped forward. "Don't forget, when you wear your sexy new clothes, follow what we told you about eyeliner. It completes the look." He chuckled and stepped up, giving Spencer a hug before pulling back. "I've been told I'm going to be shoved off to your house at least one night while we're home. I hope you don't mind?"

In the kitchen, I smirked softly to myself and looked up to see how Spence would react to that while I poured myself some juice.

I followed Ryan into the kitchen once he asked me if I wanted a beverage. I was a little parched, especially after the garlicky food. Smiling to him, I slid my arms around his waist as he drank some of the juice. I laughed as I heard a long pause after Alex's question. But then Spencer finally spoke.

"Yea, that could be arranged, so yea, cool, can't wait," I could hear the light shaking in his voice, that probably only he and I could understand, then a muffled noise, most likely a saying of goodbye while they hugged. They were too cute, if I say so myself.

Sighing into Ryan, I waited until he finished drinking, then kissed him on the back of the neck as I reached for his glass and took a drink from it too. Then placing a kiss on his jaw, I heard a cough. I looked over and Spencer was standing there with his arms out. Smiling, I let go of Ryan and walked over pulling him into a hug.

"Be careful," I said as I pulled back. He gave me a disappointed look and pouted. Oh yeah, I forgot, "Be DAMN careful," we both giggled as he made his way towards the door.

"See you guys next week," he waved, "And thanks again for letting me stay here, and for the clothes and food and all," he smiled as he let himself out.

Smiling, I waved to Spence. "Anytime!"

Alex smirked. "I expect my shirt to be clean and ready for me when I get home next weekend. I intend to wear it one night!" He then laughed and waved as well.

I looked at the door after it closed behind Spence and sighed softly. "Well...two gone...now its just the three of us." I looked over at Brendon. "For the moment at least..." I pouted a little and immediately pulled him in and kissed him deeply before letting him go.

Alex chuckled and shook his head from where he was standing as he cleared his throat. "Hey, Ry? Um...when you've pried your lips off of your boyfriend, can I talk to you for a minute?"

I pulled back from Brendon and looked over at him standing there looking a little uncomfortable. I nodded a little before looking back over at Bren. I pressed a soft kiss against his lips before whispering. "Be back in a minute, okay?"

"Sure," I smiled. Really, what else was I going to do. Luckily they walked into Alex's room and shut the door, cause it gave me time to prepare for what I had planned the whole way home. Well, since I saw Matt's desert at the restaurant. Rummaging through the cupboards quietly, I couldn't find what I was looking for, but when I was about to give up, I opened the fridge. Jackpot! I smiled to myself as I removed the object and hid it behind my back, making my way to Ryan's room.

Looking around, I started to clean up my mess and clothes, so that I could spend as much time with him as possible, so I might as well get the tedious part out of the way. After finding a proper hiding place for my surprise, I began folding my clothes and placing them into my open suitcase. Once I got everything in there cleaned up, I walked into the bathroom and did the same.

Smiling at myself for being packed, I walked into the living room, about to turn on the tv when I realized I was supposed to call my parents and let them know when my flight was to get in for sure. Since I wasn't completely sure, I decided to call them anyway and let them know I was still alive and safe. Walking towards the balcony, I dialed their number.

Luckily, my mom answered. She was relieved I was ok but said that dad wanted to have a talk with me once I got in. Great, just what I wanted. We set up a meeting place, and I told her I loved her and got off the phone. I made my way back into the living room and collapsed on the couch, turning on the tv, switching the channel to Fuse, and smiling as MCR filled the screen.

Alex and I walked into his room and he closed the door behind us. I crawled onto his bed and waited for him as he crawled up next to me. "C'mere?"

I looked at him for a moment before nodding and moving in against him as he wrapped his arms around me and just held me there for a few minutes. I looked up at him and studied his face. I wasn't sure what was going on, but it was making me worried, and there was a tiny part of me that was wondering why this couldn't wait until after Brendon had left when we had time alone again.

"I promise I'm not going to take a lot of your time. I just..." I reached up and played with his hair a little. That was something that usually helped both of us, so I followed through with it myself.

"You just what Lex?" I felt him shrug a little beneath me before he sighed.

"I don't know what I'm thinking right now. And I'm taking you away from Bren. Which I shouldn't do. You should go spend your time with your boyfriend. I'm sorry I brought you in here for nothing."

I could hear that it wasn't nothing in his voice. I looked up at him and pressed a kiss to his chin. "I know its not nothing Lex. But...I'm gonna spend the rest of Bren's time here with him. But tonight, you and me...you can tell me everything that you're thinking and feeling. Okay? But...I dunno that you wanna stay and listen." I chuckled softly to myself. "But really. Tonight, okay? I'm all yours for tonight."

He nodded a little and pecked me softly. "Okay."

I jumped a little as Ryan came out of the room. Smiling up at him, I switched off the tv and stood up, running my palms up and down my jeans. I gave him a weak smile before walking up to him and pulling him into a tight hug. Leaning back to look him in the eye, I pouted for him.

"Ry, are you ok?" I rubbed his back, "If there is something wrong between you and Alex, and you need to work on that, I can call Matt up, he couldn't have got on the expressway yet, and he can come and get me so you too can fix what is either bothering the two of you, or, well, him," I sent him another concerned look.

I really didn't want to leave, but I knew if that would make the situation easier, then I would in a heartbeat. I didn't want to take Ryan away from his best friend, even if it was our last few hours or not, I knew what was important to him. Plus, I didn't want to spend the next few hours with Ryan if his mind was on Alex anyway. I knew I was being selfish, but it wouldn't make for a pleasant experience,especially since he looks confused, so I'm sure the truth wasn't even out there yet.

I shook my head a little as I wrapped my arms around Brendon. "No, its okay. Really. There isn't anything bothering us. I mean, there might be something bothering him, no, I know somethings goin on in his head, but I don't think even he knows what it is. he needs to figure it out before he and I can really talk about it. But you don't have to leave. He told me to come stay with you and all, he'll be okay. He may go for a walk or go visit Lex until its closer to the time you've gotta go."

I shrugged slightly and moved in closer against him. "We'll be okay, I mean, we are okay." I sighed and shook my head. "I'm confused, but we're okay. Really, Bren, we're fine, you don't have to worry about it okay?"

I smiled softly at him and leaned in to kiss him softly. "So...what're we gonna do until you've gotta go? Because we have...um...how much time? I still have no clue when your flight actually leaves Bren." I smiled shyly before leaning in to kiss him again.

I kissed back, "Oh gawd, waaaaay not enough time..." smirking I kissed him again, pulling him into me more at the waist than anything, "And I am glad that it will be ok," I gave him a soft smile, "Cause you know I will respect the fact that you two need to talk and all, ok?"

Glancing over at the entertainment center, I read the time 6:30. "The flight leaves at 9:30, so that gives us at least an hour and a half to make it to the airport in time," I smiled as I let my lips connect with his, "Oh," I mumbled against him, "We need to finish what we started in the fitting rooms..." I trailed off as I pulled his hand into mine.

Leading him into his bedroom, I shut the door before pushing him against the wall next to it, "I think we were somewhere like this," I mimicked the stance I held in the store and slowly ground myself into him. As we kissed, I ran my hands down to his bum, kneading the flesh I came across. He felt so good, but these pants were very much so in the way.

I groaned against him and wrapped my arms more tightly around him. My lips pressed against his deep and hard and I held onto him. I pulled back after a few moments, panting softly and pressing my forehead against his as I did. "God Bren." I smiled softly and slid my arms more around him, tugging him in tighter against me. "And yeah, I know you respect me and Lex. But you don't have to go anywhere just because of us."

I smiled a little and pressed my lips against his again before whispering. "I love you. I really do Bren. God...just...mmmm..." I licked my lips and kissed him again, a little deeper before mumbling softly. "Be with me Bren...please." I kissed him yet again before whispering. "Lets get these clothes off and...god..."

I whimpered softly as I rolled my hips against his and bit my lower lip. I wanted to feel him and be with him. Sex wasn't necessary, but god did I want to have him inside me again right at that moment. I slid my hands up and into his hair and tugged him in against my lips again. I kissed him feverishly as I pressed more to him, trying to move him to the bed.

"Wait, wait..." I pulled away from Ryan. I knew I would regret it, but I wanted to do what he would do if I were in this situation. Walking away from Ryan, I touched him until I reached the door. Opening it, I walked out and over to Alex's, knocking first then just making my way in.

I cleared my throat as I looked at him, "Ok, so here I am. And I just want you to know," I adjusted myself, "That I, um, I wanted to know that you are ok. Cause, I mean, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't even still be here right now. And for you to be upset or, I dunno, Ryan hasn't told me the details, and I haven't asked, cause I think that if it were my business that it would already have been my business, so I am just assuming here, and I am sorry if I am wrong, but you have seemed kind of off since we left the clothing store, and if it has to do with you and Ryan, then, I am not going to sit over there," I pointed to Ryan's room, while my other hand tried to cover my pants, "And have sex with him, or whatever and have you over here upset," I cleared my throat, "And even if it doesn't have to do with Ryan, but Ryan is the only one who can fix it, then, he needs too, more than I need to be alone with him right now."

I continued, "And I know how it is when you are upset, and people around you are happy, I am not a fan of it, and I doubt you would be either, so, um, fix it ok. And I am not just saying that because I wish to fuck my boyfriend, but because you are my friend too, and I don't want you to be upset," I blinked, "And I am also not just saying that so that you are like, 'Oh, no, Brendon, it's ok, I'm ok, go be with your boyfriend', cause I know it is bullshit," great, the hardon was not dying down. And now I was getting hornier, "Or you could come join us if that would help. No wait, I couldn't do that to Spencer," I immediately covered my mouth, "Um, yeah, just ignore that," I made a motion between the two of us, "Never happened..." I sighed, taking the first breath since I had walked in the room.

I followed Brendon over and stood in the doorway as Brendon talked to Alex. I bit my lip because I didn't realize Bren was going to do that, and I couldn't believe that he just had. There wasn't really anything that could be done to fix what was going on, not unless Alex figured out what was going on and why he was upset and told me. I wrapped my arms around myself and looked over at Alex.

Alex looked up and looked at Brendon too. His eyebrows shot up at the mention of Spencer before he looked over at me. I smiled softly and made my way into the room, sitting next to him on the bed and pulling my legs up, reaching over and taking his hand with mine. He looked at me, and then over at Brendon again. He smiled softly and then sucked on his lip ring as he looked over at me again.

"Um, what's this about not doing that to Spencer? I mean..." He glanced at me before back at Brendon. "You guys know I'd love to join you two, but thats not what you guys really want. But...still...what's this about Spencer? Cuz...um...why would you say I couldn't join you because of him?

I smiled and looked over at Brendon. Alex wouldn't let that go, I knew there was no way he'd let that go. It was Alex after all. He just had this way about him, and if you told him something like that that would peak his interest, he would hold onto it until it was clarified or until it wasn't an issue or something anymore. He was amazing, and hilarious. But he was also stubborn as hell. It was a frustrating trait sometimes, but it was part of what I loved about him.

I looked over at Brendon and reached for his hand to tug him over to us. Not that I was trying to initiate anything, but just...I wanted both of them to be close to me.

I gulped as I sat down next to Ryan. I knew I shouldn't have said anything. I knew I shouldn't have brought anything up. And I knew that right at this moment, I should have been stripped naked and on top of my boyfriend. But no. I had to open my big mouth. I had to for the first time think about someone else besides myself. See, this was what happened when I cared about people. I said shit that I shouldn't.

Clearing my throat, I looked at Alex, "Well, I was just saying, you know, if Spencer were to, you know, like you or something that if he knew what you and I and Ryan did anything that that might prolong it, or even make all those feelings disappear. But," I looked at Ryan, taking his hand for support, "That would all be hypothetical of course, I mean, what do I know?"

Ok, not the best attempt in the world, but the best I could come up with. I just hoped he didn't read it all the wrong way, cause that would suck. Majorly.

Smiling softly, I leaned over and kissed Brendon softly before looking back at Alex. "I honestly have no clue why Brendon stopped making out with me to come over here, but...he obviously cares."

Alex smiled softly and nodded, looking down at my hand and his before he looked over at Brendon. "I'm okay Brendon. I really am. I've just got some shit going on in my head. It isn't anything that the two of you should not have sex to check up on me over. But, thank you Bren. Really, and thank you for offering me to join you before taking it back again." He cracked a small smile before squeezing my hand softly. "But you two should go enjoy your time before we have take you to the airport. Don't worry about me, seriously. And I'm not going to join you, Spencer or not...and whatever the Spencer thing is."

He sucked his lip ring in again before looking over at me again and he shrugged. "You two go have fun. Really. Don't worry about me."

I smiled and reached up to touch his cheek softly before leaning in and kissing him softly. "I'd say you could join us, but then I think I'd get in trouble with Brendon...and besides, you don't really want to see me naked again." I chuckled softly and he shrugged a little.

"You have a hot sexy body Ry. Just ask your boyfriend."

"The sexiest body I have ever seen," I winked at him, "And, if you are sure you are ok, cause Ryan is right, I do care about you, and I think I only owe it to you because of how amazing you have been this weekend," I shrugged, "And sorry, you know for taking it back, I tend to say things before I think..."

Smiling to Ryan, I pulled him in for a kiss. I really did want to just be alone with him. And I hoped this gave him as much closure as it had for me so that I wouldn't feel guilty for sexing up my boyfriend while Alex was alone, and he wouldn't spend the time thinking about him.

I stood up, leaned in and kissed Alex on the cheek, "If you don't mind, though, really, I would like to spend at least an hour with him, and then, you can have him the WHOLE week, like you have always had," I smiled, taking Ryan's hand, not forcing him to stand up, but wanting him too. Leaning down, I kissed Ryan again, "You ready then?" I asked as I licked my lips, tasting him.

I squeezed Brendon's hand before releasing it and taking Alex's hands in mine. "Go play with the puppy. Okay? If you go play with the puppy it might help. Besides, who couldn't use a little puppy therapy? Why do you think I'm so happy they bought little Lex?" I smiled and leaned in to kiss Alex again before standing up and pulling him up. "Don't just sit here and listen to us. Okay? You have talking and snuggling to do with me a little later. But until then, ask the guys if you can take Lex for a walk."

I kissed him again softly before taking a step back. "Go, Lex."

He smiled softly and nodded a little. "I will. You two go have fun. I'll be sure to be here before we have to leave for the airport." With a smile, he walked out of the room and then out of the apartment.

Turning back to Brendon, I smiled softly before murmuring. "So...um...do we go back to my room?"

Smiling at Alex as he left, I patted him on the back. I thought it was a reassuring gesture, but then it reminded me of my grandpa, so I wasn't sure. Once he was out of the apartment, I looked at Ryan, "Fuck yeah we do!" I smirked as I leaned forward and grabbed him by the waist, throwing him over my shoulder.

Good thing he was so light, or I was so strong, I wasn't sure which, but I would bet on the light factor...either way, I hoisted him over my shoulder, slapping his ass as I walked through Alex's door, making sure not to knock him into anything as I then made it to his room, throwing him on the bed as soon as I got there.

Not missing a beat, I climbed on top of him and took his bottom lip in my mouth as I sucked and nibbled on it while I got a position where I felt comfortable. I pulled back and winked at him, "Fuck if we didn't have just an hour..." I leaned in again and kissed him harder, running my hands up his chest, trying to remove the shirt as I went.

I moaned against Brendon's lips and leaned up a little so he could get the shirt off. I still worried about Alex, but I was determined not to let it bother me or linger on my mind until after. Once Bren got my shirt off, my hands went to his hair and I kissed him deeply and passionately. He felt good, undeniably good, and I wanted to feel him so much more. My hands slid down to his pants and my fingers worked to get them undone.

My body arched up beneath his and I kissed him again, harder and more hungry than before. I loved having his body against mine. I loved the way it felt and the way we moved together. I loved the fact that I could sleep completely naked with him and not have to worry if it was okay. I loved being able to randomly touch anywhere on his body just because without worrying if he'd be okay with it. It was intoxicating, touching his body, feeling his body, admiring how his body looks and feels.

"Bren...get these fucking clothes off right now because I seriously do not want to wait let alone think I can. I want to fucking feel you so bad right now." I whimpered softly beneath him and tugged on him, pulling him down a bit more against me. I slid my leg around his leg, pulling him in closer, although in the process not making it easy for him to get his pants off. I just needed him to know how much I wanted to have him against me.

I moaned into his movements and allowed my eyes to cross. He was too fucking much. And in the words of Matt, it was fucking recockulous what he does to me. In every sense of the word, I loved it.

Hesitantly puling away from him, I arched back, finishing the work he was doing on my pants, and kicking them off while I did the same to his. Well, not kick them off, but got them undone. I liked the fact that he was wearing underwear. Even though I loved when he didn't wear them, when he had them on, it was even hotter, like he was hiding from me, or there was another layer of him I had to fight through until I had him completely.

Sitting back, I leaned down and took the elastic in my teeth and pulled them down. Ok, so it wasn't as hot as I saw it in the movies, but still, I had fun. Once they were off though, I threw my shirt over my head and immediately laid flush against him. Just feeling his skin with mine and his body against mine. it made me tingle from head to toe.

I groaned and arched up against him, my legs falling apart a little and my hips arching to meet his. My hands gripped onto him and my short fingernails dug a little into his skin, leaving little half moon marks. I dropped my head back onto the pillow, moaning in pleasure at the feeling of his skin pressed and flush against mine. I was addicted to having his skin on mine.

I slid my hands up over his shoulders as my leg slid up slowly against his side until I could press the inside of my thigh up against his ribcage. I loved how flexible my body was, what it could do in bed with him and what I could do with it against him. I loved being able to slide my legs all the way up his sides, it drove me crazy with the feelings on the insides of my thighs, and I could only hope that it drove him a little wild as well.

I bit my lip and looked up at him, my brow furrowed, but not in a bad way, I just wanted him, I wanted to feel him. I whimpered his name quietly and leaned up, pressing my lips against his and kissing him hungrily, trying to get him to understand that I just wanted him to go with it. I wanted it to not be too fast though because I wanted it to last as long as possible, although at the same time I didn't want Alex to come back and hear us as we finished.

My mouth fell open as the longest moan fell from my lips. It seemed almost too much to handle. I gripped his leg and pulled it tighter around me, allowing our erections to slam and move with each other. He felt so perfect against my leg and my body. I wanted to hold him right here. Like this. Forever.

I leaned down to lick his neck when I remembered what I brought from the kitchen. Not sure if we had enough time to actually use it, I figured just a little bit wouldn't hurt, so maybe I could use it as a preview until I went to a store and bought different varieties of my, well, our own...

Reaching towards the edge of the bed, I grunted as I lifted the mattress a little to pull out the bottle I had stashed. Grabbing it, I smiled in victory as I arched back slightly to pop the top with my teeth, causing our lower halves to meet harder, and for me to moan. Smirking at him, I used one hand to empty some of the contents on his left nipple, followed by the right, "I know we don't have much time for this," I sighed, breathing deeply, "But, I just want to test it out and see if it is something we would like to try again," I smiled as the brown substance covered some key parts of his body.

Leaning down, I took a nipple into my mouth as I chucked the bottle elsewhere. Sucking on him, not so lightly, I flicked his now hard nipple between my teeth, making sure not to lick my lips as I moved up to kiss his lips, allowing him to taste too.

Moaning against Brendon's lips, my hips jammed up toward him as I kissed him back as hard as I possibly could. He was amazing, seriously and utterly amazing. I loved what he did to me, and I loved how new he was to all of it, it was like enjoying every aspect of sex possible all over again. I just wanted more and more. More of the experimentation and more of the discovery, more of the newness of sex and of being with Brendon.

I bit down none too gently on his lower lip before I sucked it between mine. He was so amazing and he tasted so good. I didn't know what else he had planned, but I wanted it and I wanted him and I didn't want to let him out of my bed, let alone out of LA. I pulled him harder against me and wrapped myself more around him before gasping for air and letting my head fall onto the pillow again.

"God Bren! Just...mmm....I want you in me, please. Right now!" I bit my own lip and looked up at him in the most wanton way possible, peering through my lashes, giving him a coy, 'take advantage of sweet innocent me' look. Sometimes I liked to play a few games, other times I didn't. Right then I just wanted to feel, and feeling was the most important thing of all to me. Just feeling. Feeling him and feeling us and feeling him as deep inside me as I could hope to get him.

My eyes got huge as he said that too me. Every time. Every goddamn time. That was all it took. Those words slipping from his mouth, and hell, I would drop my pants and fuck him in public if they slipped from his lips.

Arching now towards the other side of the bed, I pressed myself flush against his chest as the syrup made the surface a little too slippery, then I misjudged the distance to the table, and almost fell off his body completely. Blushing I regained composure as I got out a condom and the lube.

I smiled back to him as I looked down at his chest, then mine. The chocolate was smeared over the both of us. And I sure the hell hoped he was hungry later, cause there was no way in hell that we would have time for a shower before my flight. Sitting up, I squirted some lube on my index and middle finger, reaching down to circle his hole and slowly slid a finger in as I multi-tasked, putting on the condom, then lubing myself. Once I was settled, I just stared at Ryan in front of me.

Everything about him was perfection. From his hair to his eyes and his nose. Then his lips, and his jaw. His Adam's apple and collarbone how they jutted and moved as he swallowed. Followed by his tight firm chest that was now covered in brownness. And those damn hipbones. And that happy-trail. All pointing, almost like a compass on the map of his body. He was fucking beautiful.

My hips lifted a little off of the bed and I groaned in pleasure, again pressing back into the pillow, my jaw dropped. My fingers slipped up and into his hair, gripping onto it softly and I pulled his lips down and against mine. I kissed him a little frantically, rather sloppily, not really caring about being meticulous or conscious of how good I kissed him, I just wanted to kiss him, feel his lips on mine. It was the whole 'feeling' thing again and I was lapping it up like a hungry kitten lapped up milk.

My hips rocked a little against his hand before I pulled back, gasping softly and looking up at him through lidded eyes and eyelashes. "Mmm...Bren...stop teasing me...I want you, not just your finger."

I licked my lips before leaning up and swiping my tongue over his lips and dropping back to the pillow. My hips shifted again, as if emphasizing to him that my body was open and his if he would just take it and do what he wanted with it. There was definitely something to be said for basically offering your body freely to someone you loved and wanted to be with. Almost every time we got in bed it was about me giving him control of everything, including control of my body. Some people wouldn't like that at all, but for me, for me that was what I loved the most. I loved giving myself, giving up control of myself for the time in bed.

I hated that we didn't have a lot of time to work with. And even more so, I hated that I had to think about that.

Leaning down to kiss him, I ran my hand down his body until I reached his knee. Once I got a good grip on it, I started bringing it up my body, soon placing it on my shoulder freely so I could still reach to him for a kiss. But, if me was what he wanted, then it was me that he would be getting.

I pulled back from the kiss with a slurp then pressed my lips to his again, before pulling back completely and grabbing his other leg. Once I got both of them on my shoulders, I smirked down at him. I knew it would be hell for him to not be able to kiss me comfortably during sex, and I would even put money on it that he would squirm and stretch every possible way to make our lips collide. But we'll just see.

After getting my fill of his sexiness below me, I grabbed myself and, again like I had done in the past... Ok, so maybe once or twice, I circled myself around him, just teasing him, "Do you really want me?" I winked, "Do you want me like this?" I asked as I slowly rocked into him, "Or like this," I questioned, rocking into him so hard the bed creaked and my skin slapped against his.

Gasping, I groaned and gripped onto him, pulling his lips toward mine and whimpering when the angle just was damn near impossible to allow me to kiss him. I pouted dramatically up at him. "Of course I want you Bren...god, stop teasing me already or I'm gonna look for someone who won't tease me when I desperately want them!"

We both knew that wasn't the truth, at least I hoped that he knew that wasn't the truth because I'd be incredibly sad if he actually thought I was going to get out of bed with him to find someone else just because he was teasing me and not just giving me what I wanted.

My hands gripped onto his arms and I arched up, attempting to press my hips back against him, trying to get him to just get on with it rather than tease me. I licked my lips and pressed my head back into the pillow, my breathing already coming heavily as my body drove me crazy. During sex, or perhaps I should say being teased with sex, it seemed I would come to a point when my body couldn't handle it anymore and it drove me crazy, essentially screaming and writhing for the pleasure of more. It was a feeling that didn't happen every time, but those times that it did it was a beautifully strong feeling that just made me want to grab him and pull him inside me before the feeling overwhelmed me.

"God...Bren...just...mmmm....you..." I bit my lower lip, my head falling back as I moved my hips against his, as if begging.

I smirked at him, biting my tongue playfully. I knew he wouldn't do it. I mean, it was me. Brendon Urie, who in their right mind would walk away from this?

Reaching down, I ran the back of my fingers along his face, "You're so fucking hot when you beg like that..." I moaned as I got a hold of myself and slammed in. I mean slammed. I didn't mean to do it that hard. And I knew I didn't hurt him or anything, but I also knew that if I didn't get inside him soon that I would hurt, and he would probably cut off my dick. So I chose the smarter way.

With my hands on his legs, I stayed still for a few moments to let the both of us catch our breath from the sudden movement. Once I was capable of movements again, I almost repeated it again, only this time with a little less force. But still the same idea none the less. I continued to grip his legs, letting my stomach and chest hit the back of them as I thrust in and out of him.

He looked so fucking hot with his ass off the bed and his body moving and arching into mine. Every time I was with him, I enjoyed it even more. He knew what he was doing. And if it were his job, he should get a raise. And be the fucking president of the company.

Groaning, I reached up with one hand and gripped into his hair. I pulled his lips down, leaning up and straining just slightly to kiss him, getting a sloppy, but much needed kiss in before letting myself collapse back down onto the bed. I shifted my hips again, moaning softly to myself and forcing my eyes open to look up at him. I definitely hadn't expected him to thrust with such force, not that I didn't enjoy it, but it was a bit of a surprise.

I licked my lips again and pushed up, my calves pulling down slightly on his shoulders as I did, I tried to push myself tighter against him. His name slipped from my lips as my jaw dropped a little. As good as I liked being how I was with him, I felt a little frustrated about where to put my hands. I wanted to cling onto him, but I didn't have much of his body to grasp onto, leaving one hand in his hair and the other falling down to the sheets, gripping onto them.

"God...Bren..." I pressed my head back further into the pillow, my jaw dropped as I tried pushing back into his thrusts, shivering a little as I moved with and against him. The sensations tore through me and I felt like I could barely feel half of my body, but in the best way possible. I was concentrating more on my boyfriend above me then the feelings in my toes.

Keeping the same movements, and force, I grunted down to him as he fisted my hair, "Fuck, I love when you say may name like that..." I managed to get out between breaths. Usually, I could run a mile and not get winded, but this, this literally and physically took my breath away.

Deciding to actually give in to him, although I was enjoying the view very much, I dropped one of his knees off my shoulder and slowly moved the other down too as I lowered his bum to the bed again. Before I moved out of him, I kissed him. And not just any kiss. It was one of those kisses you saw in the movie where the man and the woman just realized that they really did love each other. And no, I was not reading into this at all. It was just one of those kisses, and that was the best way I could describe it at the moment.

I pulled back and moaned his name this time as my lower half worked its way in and out of him. Keeping eye contact with him, I started a rhythm that worked well for me, and he didn't seem like he was disagreeing either. I reached between us and took his package in my hand, toying and tickling him, but all the while, lightly tugging the skin.

Moaning Brendon's name loudly, my hips arched to meet his and his hand as my arms wrapped around his neck. I twisted one of my legs up and around his waist to hold myself as close against him as I could and to use it for leverage for moving into his thrusts. Tilting my head up, I tugged on his lower lip before releasing it as I collapsed onto the bed.

I panted for breath as I looked into his beautiful eyes. "God...Brendon...I can't...mmm...." For some sad reason, I knew that I wasn't going to last as long as I would have liked to have. I wanted to last forever with him, but it just wasn't that possible even though I wished that it was. My body and the pleasure Brendon was giving me was betraying me.

My body arched and shuddered as I pushed down and against him while similarly trying to pull him deeper inside me if it was even possible. The stimulation to my body and my senses was just so amazingly good and perfect. I was glad I gave him another chance after the first time. I was glad that he proved better than a first experience suggested because I definitely was addicted to him.

I was breathing a little to heavy. He can't what? Was I doing something wrong? But, from the way his body was moving beneath me, I thought it meant he was close. At least I hoped so, cause I wasn't sure how much more I could hold out. Him riding me definitely prolonged the situation, but here, now, I was getting worn out quickly and my body was getting turned on more and more by the moment because of the sounds emitting from his mouth.

"Fuck, Ry, fuck," this was the first time I really tried to be verbal during the deed. I was afraid before. I wasn't sure if it was because I knew we were alone or what, but I just wanted to talk, "Fuck Ry, you feel so good. So goddamn good.." I trailed off as I leaned down and attacked his neck. That was a part I enjoyed, his neck. I was so long, and his Adam's apple. It was made for me to suck on, I have come to the conclusion.

My thrusts became more erratic as I arch my back, entering him at a slightly different angle, hoping it would do the trick, we would just have to wait and see.

Gasping out loud, I pressed tighter against him and arched up into him. My head pressed into the pillow harder and I furrowed my eyebrows a little. It all felt so good. Perhaps even a little too good because the change in angle mixed with how amazingly hot and amazingly good he was with and in me, it was seriously too much.

I cried out his name softly, not really wanting to lose the moment, not really wanting to have the time finished, but at the same time, I knew I couldn't keep going forever. Forever would have been perfect and amazing, but forever was probably too much, as amazing as it would be.

My hand gripped into Brendon's hair, my other gripped onto his arm, and I felt my body shudder slightly with the force of pleasure. My body tugged at Brendon's as I clung to him. My hand in his hair tugged him up just as I smashed my lips against his. Kissing him deeply, I moaned against his lips before sucking his lower lip between mine and tugging softly.

Groaning in protest, my orgasm hit me full force and I couldn't hold back, even though I wanted to so bad. Gasping Brendon's name, my body squeezed him inside me as I pressed further into the bed.

That was all it took. If not overlapping, almost immediately my body started to shake and convulse. Starting from my toes, I felt a tingling sensation that shot through my veins and found every part of my body, stopping slightly at the brain to cause my eyes to roll back and my mouth to dry.

I believed I stopped breathing and my heart beat paused while my stomach sucked in all the way and my hips still involuntarily rocked into Ryan. Never before had I felt all that as I came. Usually it was ok. But this was more than ok. This was the fucking tip of the iceberg. It was the goddamn Titanic sinking, and it swam and screamed and hissed right back to the tips of my toes and fingers. And despite the sweat, I was cold. I was chilled to the bone.

Now that was an orgasm.

That was what people were talking about.

That was how it should be. I didn't just come, my whole body came with me.

I laid there beneath Brendon, just holding onto him as I felt the both of us start to come down from the euphoria of orgasm. It was a beautiful feeling, especially since I could have my arms around him and hold him against me, skin to skin. I loved every little moment of it, even though the moment had just barely started.

Panting softly, I licked my lips and nuzzled my face into the curve of Brendon's neck. He smelled amazing, he smelled perfect, he smelled like my Brendon. Never before had I felt the way I felt when I was with him, not even Alex, although he was the closest anyone had come to it. It was like everything I could ever want and need was right there in that bed, right there against him, skin to skin.

My leg slid from around his waist down to tangle with his legs. I moved my other to meet up and tangle with them as well since I had no desire to let him go and be without him. He was amazingly perfect, every feeling of him was, and it was his skin, ultimately, that I required and desired to have pressed to me.

I kissed the curve of Brendon's neck before sliding my tongue over his skin, just lapping up a drop of sweat, enjoying the taste of him as I relaxed. I let my eyes slip closed and just stayed there beneath him, willing time to stop so we could stay like that forever.

I let out a long sigh. I hated this part. Sex. It was so many different emotions. But hate was the most prominent one, cause it was the one that lasted the longest. I hated having to remove myself from him. I hated breaking up that something that we felt and shared. I wished it were possible to just have sex forever and ever, then I wouldn't have to worry about hate.

I just laid there against him, smiling and feeling him as the room was silent. Running my fingers up and down his leg, I took a deep breath, shuddering as I released it. Moving to look him in the eye, I pecked him on the lips, "You know the first time I truly felt something for you?" I asked, well, not really asked, since I knew the answer and I was planning on saying it before he got the chance to himself, "It was that night under the stars," I smiled, "Remember in the desert? I'm not sure what it was about it, but for some reason that was when I knew that you and I wouldn't just be a short little fling. I mean, that was what I feared the most," I bit my lip as I rolled out and off of him slightly to rest on my elbow.

Tracing patterns on his chest, I smiled at him, "I was so scared and nervous to be with you or around you before then, but that night something changed."

I smiled and reached up to brush some hair from his face. "Was that the night I told you about myself? I mean, really told you about who and what I was? Something tells me it was." I turned my head toward him, feeling my eyes just be lazy. I liked snuggling, cuddling and sleeping after sex, but I knew we couldn't do that, unfortunately.

"You were nervous to be around me though? Why? It isn't as if I'm anything to be scared of Bren." I smiled softly and slid my fingers down and across his lips. "I mean, look at us now, do I even remotely resemble someone or something to be scared of?"

I chuckled softly and moved toward him again. I wanted to be close to him, I wanted to feel him against me still because all too soon I'd have to say goodbye to him. And then, the only person I'd be pressed against would be Alex, which, was alright, but it wasn't Brendon. I loved Alex beyond words, but he wasn't my boyfriend and it wasn't he who did the things for me that Brendon did.

I kissed his finger as it crossed my lips. Sucking on it lightly as I waited for him to ask his questions, "I wasn't so much afraid of you or think you were scary or anything, I was just nervous because you were so much more advanced than me. And, well, it was this what I feared, but I am just glad that I did wait and that I did accept that you were more in tune than me. Cause it really did scare the living shit out of me. I mean, you saw how I was when I got off the plane. I was a nervous wreck," I laughed as I wrapped my leg around him to pull me up onto his body.

I looked down at him through my hair, "And now look at us," I smiled, taking his lips onto mine. Parting his mouth with my tongue, I slipped my tongue in and basically just felt around his mouth. This was one place I couldn't mentally memorize, cause I couldn't see it. I had to feel it and taste it.

Continuing to kiss until I heard my phone go off, I pulled back with a sigh. When I got off the phone with my mom, I managed to figure out the alarm and set if for a fifteen minute warning before we absolutely had to go. I whimpered, "I don't wanna..."

I nodded a little and slid my fingers up into his hair, pulling his lips back down to mine and kissing him deeply before pulling back. "I know. I don't either, Bren. But, there is a positive note, I'll be home next weekend and then I'm going to monopolize you as much as I can."

I smiled softly, trying to keep the sadness out of it, because I really didn't want to say goodbye and I didn't want him to see how sad I was to say goodbye to him. I slipped my arms around him and kissed him again before murmuring, "It'll be less than a week this time Bren. And then, I'll be home and we'll have time next weekend and all before Alex and I have to come back. So it won't be too long till I'll be pulling your body against mine again."

I smiled and sighed when I heard the door to the apartment open and I knew that Alex was back and was about to come looking for us to head off to the airport. "We could grab a quick shower so you don't smell of sex the whole way home? Or maybe you should shower and I can when I get home."

I nodded, but still pouted, "Yea, I prolly should..." I kissed his lips and squeezed him before I slid out of the bed, "And I think you should stay out of the bathroom or we will never get out," I smirked, "I just hope you don't care to smell like sex the whole way to and from the airport," I smiled as I started to gather my clothes.

Figuring I would just wear the same clothes since I was already packed, I balled them up in my fist and walked back over to the bed kissing Ryan again on the lips as I took the clothes to cover myself and make my way to the bathroom. I knew I had to be quick, cause there was nothing worse than being late for the airport, since that was when the lines seemed the longest.

Making my way into the bathroom, I quickly closed the lid on the toilet and threw my clothes on top and stepped in after making sure to have a towel handy. I began washing myself thoroughly yet efficiently as I basically just watered my hair, and washed off my body. Not really wanting to remove Ryan's scent from me, but knowing that the chocolate syrup had to go.

I sighed as I watched Brendon leave the bedroom before getting up to find a pair of jeans. I certainly didn't care if I smelled like sex. Actually, I think I preferred it because that meant I had just the tiniest bit of Brendon with me, even if it was just his scent on me.

Finding a pair of jeans, I tugged them on just as there was a knock on my bedroom door. Turning around, I saw Alex standing there with a small, almost shy smile on his lips.

"Hey...did you spend some good time with little Lex?" I smiled at him and grabbed a t-shirt from the floor, smiling absently to myself as I saw it was my black Decaydance t-shirt with the silver bat on it. Tugging it on, I made my way over to Alex and wrapped my arms around him as he nodded a little.

"Its good to have a puppy around." I just hugged him a little tighter before I pulled back and he wrinkled his nose. "You are going to change those sheets, right? They're nasty!"

I laughed and shrugged. "I'm in your bed tonight, so I can change them tomorrow." I pulled away and smiled before going and puling on a pair of shoes and grabbing a hoodie. "Do I smell bad?"

Alex walked over and sniffed me before shaking his head. "You smell like sex. But I'm not against that scent, so no."

I showered as quickly as possible then got out and towel dried my hair until it wasn't dripping anymore. Once I threw on my clothes, I walked out into the living room and into Ryan's room. Smiling at Ryan and Alex, I made my way over to the chair and scooted my bag back on the chair and sat down on the edge to put on my shoes.

Once I had them laced up, I jumped up on my feet and clapped my hands, "So, I'm ready when you are!" I faked a smiled and enthusiasm. I was a pathetic attempt, but worth a shot either way.

Walking over to Ryan, I sighed, fixing his shirt a little in the back, "Are we taking a car or a taxi?" I asked as I readjusted the strap of the bag on my shoulder. I was definitely leaving with more stuff than I came with. I was not sure how, considering all I got was a belt, but either way, it was heavier than when I brought it.

Alex held up a key. "Paul said we could use his again, so we've got the car and all." He checked the time before looking back at us. "I think we've got enough time to stop at Starbucks before getting to the airport. Either of you wanting any sort of caffeine fix?" He smiled and looked between us.

I nodded a little and stepped forward enough to peck his cheek before looking over at Brendon. "I"m game for some Starbucks, what about you?" I reached over and slid my hand into his as we walked out of my room and into the living room.

Alex stepped forward and took Brendon's bag. "Okay, c'mon you two, I'll meet you in the car."

Nodding, I smiled and pulled Brendon to me, pressing a kiss against his lips. "Don't forget, less than a week until you see me again. And then you're going to have a hard time getting away from me while I'm home."

I chuckled softly and kissed him again. I just loved kissing him and touching him and just generally being with him. Grabbing his hand, I led him out of the apartment and down to the car that Alex was waiting for us in.

I tried to take in all the sites of the apartment as I left. I wasn't sure if I would be able to come back before their internship was up, so I figured I should appreciate it now. We made our way down to the car and I didn't say a word. I wasn't in the mood to talk. I just wanted to stay here forever. I was like a kid having to leave Disneyland or something. It was pathetic.

We got in the car and headed towards a Starbucks as I continued to hold Ryan's hand. Once we were situated, I leaned my head on his shoulder and watched the world go by around me. I wished I could have paused it all. But I knew that was impossible, so instead, I simply watched it fly by. I knew it was less than a week, but I also knew that something changed this weekend that would make me miss Ryan even more.

Maybe I was in love with him, and I just couldn't say it. I still felt bad every time he said it and I just looked at him like a goof, but I didn't know what to do. I wasn't even sure what love felt like. If if felt like an orgasm, sign me up! But still, in a way, I hoped it was like sex, that it was something that once you did it, it just clicked.

I rested my head against Brendon's, just listening to the music that Alex had on while we rode to the airport. I tried to focus on what I'd be doing that week to make it go through faster than a blink. I didn't know if it would actually help, but I hoped that it would. We both would need some sort of distraction.

I turned and kissed his head softly while we approached the airport, occasionally sipping my coffee that we'd grabbed at Starbucks. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to him. Luckily we'd be able to check him in and then hang out with him until about forty-five minutes before the flight. As long as he was at his gate a half hour before he'd be okay. I intended to make as much of the time with him as I could before I had to say goodbye.

"Bren?" I ran my fingers through his hair, just gently touching and massaging his scalp. "What're you doing this week to get ready for your party? Or are you just working all week?"

Nuzzling closer to him, I replied, "Yea, I have to work everyday this week. Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday I have to work both jobs, and then I am off all day Saturday I believe to help mom with the party. My aunts are coming in to make the food and stuff. And that is about it," I sighed. I needed to stop being so dramatic, but we pulled up to the airport and Alex was looking for a parking spot.

I reached in my wallet and gave him a ten to park the car, since my parents gave me cash for those kinds of things, then I looked back to Ryan, "So this is your big week right? The week that you may or may not be assigned to help Fall Out Boy. Are you excited?" I asked, kind of getting excited for him.

We found a parking spot and I hesitantly got out of the car and followed them into the airport, hoping to hear both of them brag about having the chance to work with the coolest band ever, well, besides My Chemical Romance...

Alex and I exchanged looks while we walked into the airport. "Yeah, we find out tomorrow morning and then, if we're assigned to them, we'll start working with them tomorrow afternoon. Of course, that means that we'll probably working late in the studios and all, so I don't know that I'll be home all that much."

I pouted a little. "But, I'm sure I can slip out to make a phone call or at least text message you some from the studio. I wouldn't want to be without you all week."

I took Brendon's hand and walked with him over to the desk for his airline, letting him go so he could check in. I looked over at Alex and he pulled me in for a quick hug and pressed a kiss to my head before he let me go again, glancing around the airport.

I stood close to Brendon and put my hand on his lower back as we waited for the check-in process to be completed. I wasn't sure if he was checking his bag or not. I didn't care, as long as it was done fast so we could enjoy our time before we had to send him through security.

Once I was checked in, I turned around and kissed Ryan on the lips. I enjoyed kissing him so much now that I didn't even care if it were in public around hundreds of people. He was mine and I was his and we had every right to kiss one another. Moving from the desk so the next in line could do their thing, I wrapped my arms around him as I threw the bag back on my back. I hoped it would fit in that up-above compartment thingy cause it was coming with me.

Wading our way through the crowd, we found an empty few seats and sat down. I really didn't want to sit, I would have rather paced, but what the hell. Sitting next to Ryan, I still grasped his hand with a death grip, glancing at my phone so I wouldn't be late. I knew it seemed rude, but I thought it was even ruder to be late.

I smiled at Ryan, "No, I completely understand that you will be busy this week, cause, seriously, it is Fall Out Boy, and like you said, it is less than a week until you are home, so I can deal. I just hope the two of you get that job, cause I'm sure it would be a great learning experience and all," I smirked, "Plus, you know, it wouldn't be bad to get the demo that you produced," I nodded towards Alex, "And the band that you managed CD's in the hands of a certain bass player," I laughed, "Cause, it is worth a shot, whether anything comes out of it or not."

I chuckled softly and nodded. "I think, I'm going to 'accidentally' be listening to the cd before they get into the studio so when they walk in they'll hear it. I mean, it wouldn't hurt for Patrick to hear it too, not just Pete. I mean, then we'd have a producer on our side who can help train Alex and I can get in with Dan, Fall Out Boy's manager, not to mention the rest of their managers cuz I think they have like three."

I chuckled softly and snuggled closer to him. "The other option, of course, is sneaking a cd into Pete's bass case. Although that could be against the rules of our internship. But if they walk in and hear me listening to it, that shouldn't be."

I shrugged a little and Alex was laughing. I glared over at him a little and shook my head. "You know you're just as excited as I am Lex, so shut it!" I smirked softly and looked back at Brendon.

"Don't worry, we're going to find a way to get your cd out there, if for nothing else than to get some suggestions."

"I know you will, Ry," I leaned in and kissed him. It was supposed to be a light peck on the lips, but then my hands found there way to his neck, and one tangled itself in his hair. Seriously, they were working for themselves here. That didn't stop my lips though that nibbled and bit and pecked at his.

And, that didn't stop my throat either that moaned lightly into the kiss. Luckily my lower half was still calming down from its fun before to join in the party, cause that would have been embarrassing. All of that just for a kiss. Alex would have understood, I mean, he had kissed Ryan before, but the old lady knitting next to us, not so much.

I pulled back and groaned as the announced the Las Vegas flight boarding in five minutes. I DON'T WANNA! Keeping my fingers in his hair, I smiled at him, "This has been the best weekend ever. We should do it again sometime," I smirked, kissing him again before standing up.

Sighing softly, I nodded and stood up. "I know. We should. Although we'll kinda be doing that next weekend, although slightly different. We'll have to start planning your next visit." I grinned and wrapped my arms around him. "Maybe you can bring Spence and drive down so you don't have to be tied to a flight, even though flights would be shorter."

I bit my lip before pressing another kiss to his lips. "You're welcome here with us anytime you want Bren. But hey, we're not saying goodbye, we're saying see you in a couple days."

Grinning softly, I pressed another kiss to his lips before stepping back so he and Alex could say goodbye. Alex gave him a big hug and told him to have a safe flight before stepping back. I smiled at Alex before leading Brendon toward the security so I could say goodbye without Alex right here.

I hugged Alex and thanked him for everything he did this weekend. From the planning to the fixing of the relationship. He really was a great friend. Not Spencer, but a good friend.

Walking with Ryan towards the security, I gripped my bags in my hands, somewhat ringing them as we walked. Once we got as far as we could go without being in someone's way, I faced him and smiled, "Here," I handed him my bag, "Can you hold this for a sec," I asked as he took it from me and I used both of my now open hands to grab his face and pull him into a kiss.

I wasn't good at saying goodbyes, so I decided to show it instead. Hopefully this said it, and these actions speak louder than words. I didn't want to let go, but my lungs gave up on me too quickly, and I pulled back, "Thank you," I breathed out before grabbing the bag from him, "And, I will see you in six days Mi Amor..."

I smiled after he released me from the kiss and I nodded. "Yeah, I'll see you in six days. Maybe I'll come home with Pete wanting to sign you guys." I grinned softly before leaning in and kissing him again. I rested my forehead against his for a few moments before pulling back.

"Have a safe flight, okay? And call me when you get home. I know that's all motheringly and all, but I want to know you're home okay so I can sleep tonight." I smiled softly and pressed another gentle kiss against his lips. I was seriously going to miss those lips.

"Oh, and Bren?" I bit my lip softly as I looked over his face, my eyes lingering on his lips and then sliding up to his eyes. I smiled and whispered softly so only he could hear me. "I love you."